This post is wrapping up my Decisive year for One Word: 2011. (What is One Word, you ask? Clicky, clicky.)
I've tried to put a shiny spin on what I've accomplished with "Decisive," but I just can't.
I screwed up so much stuff. I hurt people I loved. I didn't hold on. I used people. I said words I wished I could take back. I wasted time wanting what I couldn't (or shouldn't) have. I ate too much. I drank too much. I lied. I hated. I failed.
If I was decisive, I decided the wrong thing.
I've been looking for little successes, but haven't found many. I've been looking for ways to encourage you, and I did find one of those.
I lost three dear friends this year. (Geeze, oh Pete. The encouragement is coming. I swear.) Life is short. Life is short. Life is short. At each funeral, I kept wondering what these lives, what these funerals, would have have been like if these people were failures. What if my friends who died were people with scandals and sins and flaws? After a few days of this, though, I began to see that these were the flawed people. These people were broken, they just never let the brokenness define them.
The only things that these three people had in common were that they loved Jesus and loved the people around them.
That's what decisiveness is. Finding out what matters. Doing those things.
I DECIDED the rest doesn't matter so much.
What was 2011 for you?